God's Tool

Mondays are suppose to be bad, right? Well my Monday has been amazing! I have been struggling with the question if I should keep on writing my blog. I have gotten so many wonderful comments about my blog but at the same time hurtful words have been shared. The last thing I want to do with my blog is hurt people. My desire for my blog is to reach the lost and the hurting. My mission on this Earth is to help those who are hurting. I want to take my hurtful life story and turn it into a beautiful story to help others. This morning I walked into work and one of the guys I work with told me he wants to talk to me before I open the store. He began to tell me how he read my blog and how blessed he was. He told me he can relate with me. He told me that we go through hard things but we can then embrace those hard times and turn them into something wonderful. How true is that? God allows us to go through hard times but He also allows us to take those hard times and turn them into a beautiful picture.This morning I realized Satan has been attacking me. He has been using friends and family as his tools of attacking me. I was thinking that in order to resolve some issues I might have to shut down my blog. But then I realized that would be allowing Satan to win. That is the last thing I want to do! I want to do what God wants me to do. So I will continue to write about my story. I like to look at myself as God's tool. I am God's tool! How amazing is that. How amazing is it that my Creator chose me to be His tool? Little, old, normal, everyday person me? Wow! Because I am God's tool, I will not be ashamed of my story! I will not be ashamed to tell people all the hurt I have experienced and am experiencing! Six years ago God let the unthinkable happen to me and my family. But six years later God lets me share my story to bring Him honor and glory. If I wouldn't have forgiven my father, I would not be sharing my story. I wouldn't be able to talk about him at all. I wouldn't be the person I am right now. I know I have forgiven and I know that God is now going to allow me to use my story of forgiveness for the rest of my life. Today when I was talking with the guy at work a man walked into our store and he was a pastor at a local church. Before I knew I knew what was happening he was praying for me. He prayed that God would give me the words for my blog. It was then that I realized that I need to keep writing my blog. So my morning has been quite exciting. Today I can thank God for allowing my father to leave. Today I thank God for forgiveness. Today I am excited to share my story because I can't wait to help someone work through something hard and to help them forgive! My God never leaves my side!